Lloyd's Wild In The Streets

I was so wrong

2010-09-18T16:39:00.000-07:00

I was so wrong about everything, but I don't regret a single thing I did. Someone will appreciate my nature some day.

< / 3

In Love?

2010-08-10T22:45:00.000-07:00

...naaaahhh brah!. One step at a time though maybe in a few months - Watch this space.

Watching Bleach and eating Cheescake together, she's perfect <3

きそう

2010-07-07T10:00:00.000-07:00

Just so bored of stuff right now. But Charlotte is back from NY and she is...married! WTF? I'm super happy for her and I'm looking forward to meeting her hubby, I can't think of a nicer person to be happy. She's the fucking queen.

The title of this post, however, is 'kisou' which means SHIT. I just need a breaaaak man. Work is super repetitive right now, at least this bad boy is out in two days...

It best wash the taste of those fucking AvP movies right out of my mouth. They were utterly cuntlicious

Long time, really busy!

2010-06-10T13:51:00.000-07:00

No updates recently, but back at work. Feel like I'm wasting the best years of my life behind a desk. Oh, and I quit university. Don't worry though, I'm transferring elsewhere but need to earn some bucks first. Japanese studying everyday at the moment until I get a real handle on it, so I'm looking at some solid graft until mid August at least.

If thats not enough I've been doing weights and running lots, getting real trim. I'm down to a fuckin 30" waist! Mario Galaxy 2 comes out tomorrow though, so sitting on my arse a lot more very very soon!

Triple Thrash Treat

2010-04-18T12:01:00.000-07:00

After an absence of the TTT last week I humbly apologise, and am on my knees begging for forgiveness. In return, I present you with a trio of vids that should leave you begging for forgiveness....

This week's selection has been mainly inspired by Terrrorizer Magazines newly released "Secret History of Death Metal" (Order your copy nowHERE ). Being a kid growing up and the internet not being the treasure trove of info it is today (let alone not available almost ANYWHERE opposed to EVERYWHERE like it is now) I missed out on a lot of good bands. Most modern DM (and so called 'death core' bands like) bores me silly with its sterile production and over reliance on musical complexity making something that was primal and fierce into a chin stroking exercise. A lot of the time it plain isn't catchy enough neither. so when I'm introduced to 'new' bands I am disappointed. Although these bands aren't 'new' in the literal sense, it's the first time I've checked them out. Enjoy.

Welcome to Hell

2010-04-13T14:13:00.000-07:00

Sellout

2010-04-13T14:12:00.000-07:00

Yes I'm monetising my page. So what? Give it a go eh?

Porn + The Big Lebowski = win win win

2010-04-08T13:17:00.001-07:00

I'll let this speak for itself

ダイゴ

2010-04-07T06:15:00.000-07:00

This video still makes me wonder how the hell someone can get so good as so many different iterations of Street Fighter :

Some later footage of the beast from God's Garden in Tokyo vs Mago

and some good news that will ensure some more sick arcade level play:

http://www.shoryuken.com/content.php?r=530-Arcade-LIVES-Super-Street-Fighter-4-Confirmed

I'm surprised I've never mentioned my Street Fighter obsession on my blog before. Well, I am a man besotted, I have to say.

If you're on XBOX live and you like to play Street Fighter 4, Third Strike or Turbo Remix add my gamertag

SOUTHBANK LLOYD

No War For Black Metal

2010-04-06T04:01:00.000-07:00

Still the best thing to come out of "Day in the City" since it started

Tim Bennett's Triple Thrash Treat

2010-04-04T14:35:00.000-07:00

Tim Bennett from London band Bun Dem Out and resident Saturday night DJ at the Soho Arts bar chooses this week's TTT. He's written a nice intro for them all. Bless 'im.

Enjoy kiddos

The videos for my Triple Thrash Treat selection comes from the German record label 'Noise
International' promotional video; 'Doomsday News, The video compilation - Volume 1' which featured several German and Swiss metal bands as well as the Canadian band Voivod. I stumbled across this dusty VHS in a charity shop a few years ago, on sale for a humble £1. Undoubtedly the best £1 I've ever spent in my life so far. Here are my three personal favourites from this excellent video.

First off we have one of my favourite ever thrash metal bands; Kreator, with 'Toxic Trace' from their 1987 album 'Terrible Certainty'. The song is a pure thrash beast and the video is so wonderfully gritty and lo-fi and bares all the typical thrash hallmarks in unashamed glory: plenty of headbanging; metal stances; cut-off sleeves; tight jeans; studded belts; hair obscuring vocalist's face and a completely spastic solo. Enjoy.

Next up - Coroner with 'Masked Jackal' from the 1988 album 'Punishment for Decadence'. This Swiss band gained some notoriety by their links to fellow Swiss band Celtic Frost. The Guitarist and drummer were reputedly roadies on Celtic Frost's "Tragic Serenades" tour and Tom G. Warrior provided guest vocals for their 1986 demo 'Death Cult'. This song is a fine example of Coroner's eclectic talents. It's got thrash, groove, technicality and an awesome solo.

Right, to round things up and leave on a high note (though, no less brutal) we have Germany's premiere exponents of 'good-time beer-themed party-thrash' - Tankard. This track - 'The Morning After' from 1988's album of the same name tells of a drunken night's antics and the inevitable resulting hangover. A theme which is fairly common throughout the majority of their songs (there's even a song on the album entitled 'Shit-faced', so you know what to expect from these guys!). They may be comical in presentation and lyrics but they take their thrash utterly seriously. Just watch the video and see for yourself. (I also couldn't resist posting the lyrics, which are pure genius)

Can this be or am I dreaming?
What a mess!
Woke up drunk lying on the floor
This cannot be, my place is trashed
Broken bottles everywhere
Vomit oozing down the stairs
I asked myself how did this happen
Don't recall
Why the nasty, pounding headache?
I need relief, where's the Tylenol?

Refrain:
Lying in my bed! With a swollen head!
What did I do? I always regret
the morning after!

Morning's passed, now I think I remember
Holy shit!
Ugly bitch playing with my member
Mutated sow with an extra tit
Senseless ruckus late at night
That's when we began to fight
Four a.m. and we were hungry
Cooked some food
Ate until the fridge was empty
Then they left, all their bellies full

Refrain

Solo: Axel, Andy

Now my brain feels like mashed potatoes
Getting sick
I swear to kick this nasty habit
And never drink for ever more
Headache ceases, all is fine
Getting thirsty, where's the wine?
I cannot stop though I'm seeing double
Sloshed again
I know it's sad but I really need it
Cause alcohol is my only friend

Refrain

Lying in my bed! With a swollen head!
What did I do?
Lying in my bed! With a swollen head!
What did I do? I always regret
the morning after!

Demotivational.com

2010-03-25T12:56:00.000-07:00

Demotivational.com is a great site with some funny pics keeping me amused. Scope the following yo:

Is this news worthy? Really?

2010-03-24T10:59:00.001-07:00

http://kotaku.com/5501000/super-mario-galaxy-2-logo-has-a-little-friend

Really?

INTERVIEW!

2010-03-23T02:06:00.000-07:00

Well thank fug for that. I've been working my arse off for most of the year, with the end of the academic year hurtling towards me like a dead end wall in a car where the brakes aren't working. The reason for that being I hadn't managed to get myself a work placement for the third year. Now, a placement in my eyes is indispensible. If I had managed to get one during my first degree I may actually have some form of a career now (although I doubt it, my heart wasn't in it).

A big company has asked me to their offices for an interview next Wednesday, I'm peeing my pants! I'm working very very hard this week everyday to get ready and will be wearing the smartest suit in my arsenal!

Wish me luck!

I'm not a sicko

2010-03-22T08:35:00.000-07:00

Triple Thrash Treat Talita/Earache edition

2010-03-21T05:22:00.000-07:00

Long time friend and french-speaker Talita Militia from Earache records chooses this week's trio of thrashing goodness with a (un)surprisingly modern era Earache influence so watch and enjoy!

Evile - 'Infected Nations'

Municipal Waste - 'Wrong Answer'

Gama Bomb - 'Slam Anthem'

So Over it

2010-03-17T01:09:00.001-07:00

Some people really aren't all that cool when you get to know them a bit better...

I'm so over it

Louise Brown's Triple Thrash Treat

2010-03-15T08:40:00.000-07:00

This week I'm very pleased and honoured to bring you a trio of videos chosen by Miss Louise Brown, the editor of Terrorizer. She obviously knows her stuff, if you haven't heard of Terrorizer magazine for whatever reason, please take a gander here : http://www.terrorizer.com/frontpage_mmx

Anyway Lousie is a professional writer, and I'm not. So I'll let her introduce the videos herself!

Thanks again Louise x

Sacrilege - The Captive (Live in Birmingham 1988)

I've decided to base my three videos around women who seriously kick ass. None of this corset warbling bullshit (which I must admit I'm slightly partial too) and definitely reinforcing the belief that women have positive role models in this very male-centred world. Certainly beats that Fuel Girl/Steel Panther groupie bullshit that seems to be infiltrating every facet of my beloved music scene at the moment. Let's start with Tam Simpson from Sacrilege. Basically Birmingham in the late '80s must have been a seriously exciting place to live in you were into heavy metal. Look! This is a Candlemass show. Fuck! And Sacrilege are opening. If I'd lived there Tam would have been my hero. She is anyway. Xtreem Records just put out a compilation of their demos - get it!

Arkona - Pokrovi Nebesnogo Startsa

I grew up with folk music so as you can imagine I'm pretty much at my happiest around folk metal. I was raised on a heady diet of strong, female voices from Sandy Denny, Melanie, Maddy Prior, Jacqui McShee and folk metal seems to be the one sub-genre of metal where women are most accepted. From the more acoustic fare of Jex Thoth through to this blackened outpouring of menstual mayhem courtesy of Russia's Arkona. Vocalist Masha Scream is a true matriarch - I can imagine her ancestral sisters ruling the tribe and putting the warrior men firmly in their place.

The Runaways - Rock N Roll

I can't fucking wait for the biopic based on the lives of Joan Jett, Cherrie Currie, Sandy West, Micky Steele, Lita Ford and Jackie Fox. The Runaways did what they wanted. They were punk rock incarnate. The boys wanted to be with them and the girls wanted to be them. They paved the way and girls, we love you for it.

Triple Thrash Treat BADMAN edition

2010-03-08T08:58:00.000-08:00

I'm slowly running out of metal experts in my address book to harass for video selections. However, this week the selection is by a man I should have asked near the beginning of all this craziness. Sam 'Badman' Thredder (Don't ask how he got his nickname, it'll give you nightmares) is someone heavily involved in heavy music. He has a lovely studio setup (http://www.myspace.com/thecrosneststudio) where a LOT of bands record their albums and also plays in innumerable projects ranging from Hench Beast(http://www.myspace.com/henchbeast), HellBent Diehard (http://www.myspace.com/hellbentdiehard) and Destron to his newest, SlabDragger (http://www.myspace.com/slabdragger). He's chosen some tunes that will make your soul shit itself.

Broken Hope - 'Into the Necrosphere'

Good, solid death metal. I remember this band had a song title 'She Came Out in Chunks'.

Napalm Death - "World Keeps Turning"

Grrriiiizzzziiiinnndddd!

Possessed - "Heretic"

One of the earliest dm bands! Frantic shit, I think Larry Lalonde played guitar for them for a little bit. Can an internerd please verify my claim? I'm all wikipedia'd out thanks

That's it for this week. Thrash on!

Song titles that say it all

2010-03-01T05:19:00.000-08:00

Down on South Street Philadelphia,
Out from Avenue C,
I seen it in the eyes
it was ready to freeze
from the valley hotel!

I don't care about you!
Fuck you!
I don't care about you!
Fuck you!

I see Hollywood boulevard,
welfare hotel,
I spent the night in jail,
near the Wicox hotel!

I don't care about you!
Fuck you!
I don't care about you!

I've seen an old man have a heart attack in Manhattan.
Well he just died while we just stood there lookin' at him.
Ain't he cute?

I don't care about you!
Ohhhhhhhhh!
I don't care about you!

I see man rollin' drunks,
bodies the streets.
Some man was sleepin' in puke
and a man with no legs crawling down 5th street trying to get something to eat!

I don't care about you!
Oh noooooo!!
I don't care about you!
Fuck you!
I don't care about you!
Hey! Hey!
I don't care about you!

I dont care about your feelings, i dont care i made you cry, i dont care i wasnt there for you in the trying times, who was ever there for me, who heard my screams, now i live this goddammed life with these broken dreams. THE TRUTH HURTS! dont tell me how to live or to change my ways, dont tell me to respect the things you do for me, when all you do is cheat, lie & decieve. its not what you feel its what you must do. this misjudgement happens everyday and this shouldn't be true, if you would open your mind instead of just your mouth and find out what the truth is really all about.

I've seen your face and I don't like you
You're no friend of mine
I don't like any of the things you do
You're no friend of mine
You're no good it's easy to see
You're no friend of mine
I've told you before stay away from me
You're no friend of mine

You think that you can come around
and act like on of us
Just because you're in the scene
Doesn't mean that you can hang around
I see you everywhere I go
Talking to the boys
Don't you realize you're dirt
In everyone's eyes?

If I've told you one I've told you twice
You're no friend of mine
But you never listen to my advice
You're no friend of mine
What the fuck do you what from me
You're no friend of mine
I've told you before stay way from me
You're no friend of mine

You think that you can come around
and act like on of us
Just because you're in the scene
Doesn't mean that you can hang around
I see you everywhere I go
Talking to the boys
Don't you realize you're dirt
In everyone's eyes?

You're no friend of mine
You're no friend of mine
You're no friend of mine
You're no friend of mine

You think that you can come around
and act like on of us
Just because you're in the scene
Doesn't mean that you can hang around
I see you everywhere I go
Talking to the boys
Don't you realize you're dirt
In everyone's eyes?

TRIPLE THRASH TREAT SWOZIFIED

2010-02-28T03:55:00.000-08:00

Woo hoo!

So this week has been chosen by Swoz of the rather splendid Milton Keynes band Hard Target (go here for the band's myspace page: http://www.myspace.com/hardtargethc, get their ep here: http://www.rucktionmusic.com/default.aspx?Search=hard%20target&SearchIn=*&PageNumber=1&ProductsOnPage=20),

rather sweet sounds coming your way!

1.Vio-Lence "Bodies on Bodies"

For those not in the know, Vio-lence was the band Robb Flynn used to be in before deciding to start a band with cringeworthy lyrical refrains like 'Let Freedom Ring with a Shotgun Blast'. Nice metal thrashing madness!

2.D.R.I - 'Thrashard'

The Dirty Rotten Imbeciles themselves with some tight, tight crossover. 'Suit and Tie Guy' is my personal favourite but this is SWOZ'S TTT not mine!

3. Holy Terror - 'A fool's Gold'

Another band I'm totally embarassed to know nothing about! Good tune!

That's it for this week.

Thrash out.

日本語をべんきょうする

2010-02-21T23:54:00.000-08:00

I've been studying (or trying to study) Japanese seriously for the last 3 years or so. Progress is up and down, but recently I've started meeting someone every couple of weeks to practice my speaking and check over some grammar points. I'm also going to start posting a Japanese language post with every post I do from now on, to help me learn. So I'm NOT being a showoff or pretentious, most of the time it'll probably be all wrong anyway. Peace.

I'll endeavour to translate this post later! Probably through the help of this site:

LANG-8 http://lang-8.com

Triple Thrash Treat via Khaled!

2010-02-21T06:55:00.000-08:00

Khaled Lowe is a brother in metal and booze. He has a great knowledge of and taste in metal bands. He also directs some pretty sick vids for people, with Ninebar and TRC but 2 videos in his resume (go here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Anz_kVX3KGk and here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kHE3T3Z6ieQ for these treats).

Any I asked Khaled for 3 video choices for his own TTT, and here is the result. Pretty Awesome choices!

MORBID ANGEL - 'Rapture'

Also one of my fave videos, this shows the 'Angel with one of their most furious jams. Are they actually going to do a new album with Dave Vincent or not? Someone let me know please. Thanx

FORBIDDEN - 'Step by Step'

Forbidden are totally a band I drastically need to educate myself about. Banging shit.

CARCASS - 'Heartwork'

One of THE reasons I got into Death Metal, this song and video is great. This comes from a time that Sony/Columbia did a distribution deal with Earache (around '93/'94 I think) and as such some of the videos from this time had a high budget sheen to them. Longtime fans of Carcass seemed to hate this era of their output, I remember reading someone from Autopsy saying that Heartwork 'sounds like fucking Queensryche'. I still love it regardless, and their earlier stuff too.

Peace out thrashsters. Cheers again to Khaled.

I just can't tell...

2010-02-16T15:28:00.001-08:00

Busy like no way I have been before!

2010-02-16T10:34:00.000-08:00

Man. Busy is NOT the word. Almost every moment in my life right now is related to my course. I get up at 7 am, get into uni at about 8:30 ish and go to bed at 1 am the following morning. The only breaks I have are my coffee at uni in the morning, lunch, dinner and maybe 2o mins or so on msn talking to some friends. But it's paying off. Hopefully that Lionhead placement will be mine! So motivated, I love it.

"Rucktion Sam"

2010-02-10T11:41:00.000-08:00

"We may be elitist, but we’re still human, and explaining to that kid why you kicked him in the face so hard for trying to push mosh is the difference between that kid finding hardcore as something they want to be a part of and never coming to a show again."

If you want a good laugh go to this blog, it's full of lots of ROFL gems like the above

HERE:

http://moshinallovertheuk.tumblr.com/

Big up Lianna

2010-01-27T13:30:00.000-08:00

My friend Lianna and ex bandmate in HTB has been in hospital due to Poland's syndrome. Please follow her blog about it and read all you can. Thanks

http://oneandahalfbreasts.blogspot.com/

TRIPLE THRASH TREAT Stevie Loftin Edition!

2010-01-15T16:08:00.000-08:00

TTT time again! This time my friend Stevie has chosen the videos, including a band I hadn't heard before, a Testament track I hadn't heard before and an all time Fave by ANTHRAX. So let's get to it biizzatch

1.WARBRINGER - 'Combat Shock'

A contemporary band I hadn't perused before, after a cursory listen I decree Steve has made a pretty solid choice!

2.TESTAMENT - 'Souls of Black'

Unfortunately, embedding was disabled by request, so you're gonna have to follow the link for this. Sorry Kids!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iqiTNHJVp9E

3.ANTHRAX - 'MADHOUSE'

This makes me metal thrashin mad yooooooo!

Cheers again to Steve, if you have any choices comment/send me a message bloooood x

Tempa T soundboard

2010-01-06T15:20:00.000-08:00

Oh My.....

http://apartofmedies.pwp.blueyonder.co.uk/tempz.html

Triple Thrash Treat Vol 4. Skill Wizard Edition

2010-01-05T08:58:00.000-08:00

After an extended hiatus the Triple Thrash Treat is back with a vengence. This selection is courtesy of dj/movie mogul/thrash head Marek 'SkillWizard' Steven. The man plays tunes at decent metal gigs and represents the thrash 24-7. Blog here: http://skillwizard.blogspot.com/, myspace here: http://www.myspace.com/skillwizard.

Enjoy.

Sacred Reich- The American Way

Fresh from the California Man soundtrack here's the 'Reich with their stomptastic Reagan fuelled hit "The American Way". Brandan Frasier MOSH

Nuclear Assault - Critical Mass

The first in a Dan Lilker double bill NA leads the way in a trend that didn't quite take off, thrash karaoke.

Brutal Truth - 'Ill Neglect'

Griiiiiinnnnnnndddddddddddd!

George V, War and Gratitude

2010-01-03T09:10:00.000-08:00

Well I've had an enlightening afternoon. My great aunt (my mum's aunt, the sister of her dad my grandfather) came round for Sunday dinner and showed us a letter sent to my great grandfather. I don't know much about my family's history but I got to read this, dated 1918:

It reads:

"1918

The Queen joins me in welcoming you on your release from the miseries and hardships which you have endured with so much patience and courage.

During these many months of trial, the early rescue of our gallant officers and men from the cruelties of their captivity has been uppermost in our thoughts.

We are thankful that this longed for day has arrived, and that back in the old country you will be you will be able once more to enjoy the happiness of a home and to see good days among those who anxiously look for your return.

George R L"

My great grandfather was a POW in France during the first world war for two years. I'm lucky he wasn't killed, and I wouldn't even be here. It blew my mind, in this day and age of having images of war on the news all the time and all these young army people and also the civilians being caught in the crossfire it makes me think of the families that will 'never be', their destinies cut short. I'm here, and I'm going to make sure the world knows it. No guilt, So grateful.

This blew my mind, Handwritten (it's a little out of focus but you can read it) :

George R L, George the V king of England at the time. Wow.

Old friend

2010-01-03T05:28:00.000-08:00

Some footage I filmed way back in 2001 of my friend 'Pnut' Tom Clarke at the Shell Centre got featured on the PWBC blog. Check it here:

http://palacewaywards.blogspot.com/2010/01/homeslice.html

2nd day of the new year

2010-01-03T04:45:00.000-08:00

I'm not slowing down yet! First stop, southbank:

Crew's all here, smoking time

There were a few more new characters on the graff wall by the same guy as last time, 'broke'. Looking sick! Although one already has a few scribbles on it by some toy. The perils of legal walls...

So then onto the 12 bar and the Rucktion evening

Look who's here:

Before I had to leave I caught a couple of bands, one was called "Fort Valiance", they were pretty tight!

So then onto West Drayton and party time, it was full of many people partying hard and singing along to KillSwitch Enagage, Finch and the legendary Half Past History, if a reunion of the actual band members of sorts. It was 'bare joke' as they'd say in the city.

Hit of the evening: The 'designer beaver' toy where you used a magnet and iron filings to create a muff decorated how YOU want. Of course, I had the anti-christ muff.

It was a good time by all! I ended up going home at around 1:30 ish, I couldn't drink because of driving and everyone was starting to drunk out. I got home and found this young lady online:

Good times. I hadn't spoke to Kirsty in a while. Although I'm sure I saw something move behind her curtains....

Happy new year!

2010-01-01T16:40:00.000-08:00

Ambitions:

Meet this insane woman.

Sometimes...

2009-12-28T14:10:00.000-08:00

I don't often look to others for comfort, but when they say things this nice it's refreshing

"i guess i mean that i dont group you in with the majority of people. you are very open to new ideas even if they take you to strange places. you think in a lovely way, far less laterally than the average person, and this is a good thing i think. new ideas and knowledge about yourself and the world cant come from repeating the smae things others have done

you are willing to look at yourself and try to understand the way you work and why you do things

and yet you dont get so bogged down in being an introvert that you forget to live which is a thing i see too often"

So Confident Right now...

2009-12-28T13:07:00.000-08:00

...none of you can fucking touch me. Watch out.

Boxing Day Skate

2009-12-26T14:47:00.000-08:00

After the craziness of xmas day it was good to get out of the house and have a skate! First stop, Royal Oak. The best thing about it was....

It was empty! Well, there were two kids there but they didn't get in the way or anything. I was so rusty at skating but it was a good place to warm up and get to grips with ollies again.

A gang of bmxers came and crowded the place out, so I left. On the way back to Westbourne park I saw this building...

It looked crazy, like a big wooden box. It was beautiful.

So back to Southbank...

It was quiet to start with but then people came down to shred! Steph, Rory, Farhad, Tomick, Henry and a couple of people I don't know at all...

Rory was ripping

You should watch Rory's section on the Landscape video, it rips....

It was good to see people and have a roll around. I went through a phase of not going to SB at all, the thing is I was more or less cutting out half of my social scene by not going. I'm glad I've started going back down there.

There is some decent graff down at SB on the wall at the moment...

Unfortunately it will all probably be covered by some toy tags very very soon.

Merry fucking

2009-12-24T13:46:00.001-08:00

Christmas!

Much love dudes and dudettes x

Amazing Agnostic Front Cover

2009-12-24T12:06:00.000-08:00

Now, Agnostic Front have been around a loooooooong time. They're great live, no matter how many times you see them. Now, I'm normally against 'novelty' covers, but this cover of AF's 'Society Suckers' by Walter from Gorilla Biscuits, Quicksand, Rival Schools etc is absolutely wicked.

Both versions below.

The Great Katt is GOD

2009-12-08T10:57:00.000-08:00

I can't believe I totally forgot about the Great Katt. BEETHOVEN ON SPEED!

Sunday Video Mix

2009-12-06T04:34:00.000-08:00

I'm still ill. Sucks. Listening to music soothes the pain though. Here's some stuff to get your ears around, courtesy of everyone's favourite video site YouTube. I don't know what I'd do without youtube. Eclectic mix, ranging from Roy Orbison to De La Soul and Madball, since I saw them on Friday and they slayed it, of course.

Goodbye Dirty Money

2009-12-05T06:49:00.000-08:00

Dirty Money are no more. Remember the good times!

Baseball Furies

2009-12-03T09:47:00.001-08:00

I'm sitting in my room, opposite from my friend Will. Me and Will first met years ago at a Ninebar gig at the Dome, back in the days when hardcore shows in London were plenty and taken for granted. Will has a chequered background and is a complex character. However, for all his complexity, his mentality is one I detest. Too quick to open his mouth and criticise, pouring bitterness into the room like some toxic, rancid fumes escaping a factory that would fail any kind of environmental safety checks. Why and when Will had metamorphosized into this shell of what he once was I'm not sure. Maybe he uses it as a defence mechanism, like how many people build walls around themselves to save them from hurt. What he had to defend himself against, with an affluent background and loving parents, I have no idea. Perhaps he is just too self conscious.

"Don't you think it's a joke? How can they represent skateboarding in this way? That video is a piece of shit anyway..." and so he drones on. I'm thinking to myself he must have some kind of limit to what he can complain about, some time when he will run out of things to put down and criticise. "Like it must take them 2 or 3 years to make such things, skating really isn't like that..." and so he drones on and on. It's at that point his words start losing any sort of form. I can't work out where sentences and syllables begin and end, I can see his lips moving but all I hear is something that resembles the way the adults sound in Charlie Brown cartoons, "waffle waffle waffle, wah wah wah" and I feel something negative welling up inside me at the base of my stomach, like a sickness. Let me make another point about Will: he's an absolute fantacist. He'll talk about what he intends to do, but never does it. Then goes on to put down those with the balls to do what he wishes he could do. He also has conservative ideals : Hardcore should be like This, skateboarding should be like This, a man should be like This, whoever deviates from this staid template is a cunt and blah blah blah blah my mind cuts off after a point. As you can see, he isn't the most likeable chap.

All of a sudden in the middle of one of his pointless tirades a word cuts through and hits me with the force of a train with nitro boosters: a name of one of my friends. "He's such a meathead, do you think he was bullied at school?" dribbles out of his mouth with the bitter monotone that was his forte. "Look everyone is bullied at school one way or another" I shout in his face "What the fuck do you know about him anyway, you shapeless spineless twat of a manchild? I've never seen you even speak to him, just in case you're scared you might actually like him like all the other people who you're absolutely terrified of!". After just one sentence my throat is hoarse as if I had been shouting for hours, I never knew I was capable of such sheer force in my voice. "I'm not terrified of them it's just..." I cut him off before he continues his weak counter "Yes you are. You're scarred. Mentally. Something happened to you with someone that may have resembled him and so you use him and all the others as a target for your frustrations" I feel very calm and collected again, but he continues "Thanks for the breakdown Sigmund." Typical. This is the kind of derisive tone he took when he was cornered, always. "Haha yeah I've never studied psychology but you are so transparent that an absolute fuckwit in the street would make the same observation. Your personality is so simple that even the most uneducated can see through you like an invisible man. Which is what you are. Invisible, pointless. No one would even notice you being there at all." Before I know it, Will snaps. He grabs a baseball bat from the side of my desk and I feel the sharpest pain in my left shoulder. I'm on the floor. Then it comes down. Crack. Splat. I feel nothing at this point. I now seem to be standing outside my body, observing all of this like an angel looking down on the Earth. I have never seen such unrelenting violence. True violence. Now, when you see people having a fight outside the pub on a Friday night, it's all a show. A display of a pathetic approximation of macho bravado and a ritualistic dance that feeds the ego as opposed to blood lust. Not this. This is something savage and primal. There is nothing of my head left, just a bloody mess. Will is left standing there, shoulders heaving like a 100 meters sprinter post-race. I don't know what to make of all this.

"Bryan! Bryan!" I wake up. I'm in the Camden Underworld. The all too familiar smell of stale beer and drains from the toilets fill my lungs. Sounds grim but is a damn sight better than the dream I was having. Will is telling some story about touring with his old band xStreet Beersx to some young girls who have started coming to shows only recently. One is the prototypical hardcore kid : piercings, too many tattoos for one so young that were chosen on a whim and a Rucktion tee shirt. She has unusually stony grey-blue eyes, a small round nose, long blonde hair and pointed chin. Her skin is pale as if she has been in hibernation and would burn to a crisp in even December sunlight. Her lip curls up as she speaks, prattling on about what most young hardcore kids talk about who have been in the scene 5 minutes: straight edge, getting more tattoos and the latest CDs she has bought. Dull conversation. Her friend seems a little more interesting, dyed red hair tied back with a perfect fringe across her forehead, big heart shaped ear rings, nice eye make up that makes her look slightly Oriental, lovely olive skin tone that brings to mind the mediterranean and a smart, sophisticated sense of dress that is years beyond her youthful, pretty face. Black boots with leather trousers and matching jacket. This girl is giving me a nice stare, and leans over and says "You fell asleep for 5 minutes, are you feeling ok" and touches my left arm. I feel a sharp pain, like when people touch a sensitive and bruised part of your anatomy. "Yeah I'm alright" I reply, trying not to gawp at her too much. "Listen, I need to go to the little boy's room, get you, me, will and your friend a drink" and hand her a £20 note. I get up and walk to the toilet. I do my business and turn around and almost have a heart attack. Blood is dripping from my nose, pouring in fact. I feel dizzy and my head is becoming faint, shapes lose their form and my legs give way. I hit the ground hard and everything goes black.

No longer broken hearted. Ever. Again.

2009-12-03T09:09:00.000-08:00

I can't remember how I met most people. But I'll always remember how I met Her. I wasn't even sober but I remember every single little thing, where I was standing, where she was standing, how the sun felt against my skin and who I was talking to at the time. Since then a few years have passed she has flown in and out of my life, but since we are talking about two very busy people here that is understandable no? Thing is, the last few weeks, I have been on something of a motivational high. You know those days were you feel nothing can stop you? It seems, all of a sudden, that the key for this mindset is me thinking about Her. The dark side to this though seems that when I lay my head down to sleep, and have thoughts of the utmost clarity she can't escape my mind. It's as if I've captured her and she's a prisoner with no way of getting out at all. Even though I'm the Warden and I'd love to set her free my brain refuses and I find it far too hard to relax in case I don't see her in my dreams.

At times I feel some sort of feeling welling up inside me like a volcano about to erupt that gives me strength and a spring in my step when I think of Her. I'm not sure what Love is as I've never experienced it. If this is it I have a lump in my throat as I never thought anything could feel so real, so intense, so beautiful. I thought I was in love as a teen, but really that was just juvenile infatuation, and what comes with that is intense possessiveness and jealousy, insecurity and a lack of faith in yourself. Let's face it, it takes a rare type of teenager to fully love themselves and have true self confidence. You're always looking outside of yourself for validation and a buzz to keep yourself going. When you reach true adulthood you feel free of such neediness.

Which leads me to another confusing conundrum about this Love I am carrying. I have never considered myself a 'religious' person. I mean, God and Jesus and the Old Testament and Eternal Life etc etc. However the concept of 'Sin' is something that applies here. I feel as if it would be a total sin to woo this woman, she is perfect as she is and should be free to live her life and have fun and many adventures on her journey through this mortal coil we all experience alike. If we became 'involved' she would have a major restriction on what she could and couldn't do (notice the absence of 'can' and 'cannot') and keep her conscience crystal clear, certain ties would manifest that would stop her from changing certain things in her life because it may affect me. It would be like taking the most beautiful animal ever and shoving it into a cage. Inhuman, maybe. Conversely, the thought of another man laying his hands all over her, her thighs, her breasts, her gorgeous face, delicate neck and much more besides makes me feel a kind of pain and bitterness, as if someone could literally punch you in the soul. Let me state again, I'm not a religious person, but I feel there is something more to human beings than the mind and body, but whatever this 'spark' is it dies with them at the end of our journey. I feel this woman has genuinely touched this spark of mine with her smile, her manner as I feel lust and attraction for her but a little something else too. I couldn't care less if the feeling is reciprocated at all, as I thrive on my love and not needy. I don't know what I'm going to do about all of this, I feel compelled to write about it as I have previously stated, I'm a volcano about to pop, the pressure has to be addressed somehow or I'll lose my somewhat already insane mind.

My love won't die. And as a consequence, I can do anything I want. Watch out world.

Triple Stomp Treat

2009-11-27T02:13:00.000-08:00

I went to the cro to see Blood Red Shoes play, the jukebox selection made me realise how I had forgotten how fucking good Helmet were. so, for no real good reason apart from this, here are 2 helmet vids, and a Fudge Tunnel vid too.

Scott Fucking Bad Ass Move

2009-11-23T13:36:00.000-08:00

My mate Scott has had an interview done with ThisLife web art fanzine. He is a true character at shows, growls in two awesome bands Special Move and A*M*B*U*S*H and did a tee shirt for my old band Hang the Bastard. Overall he is just awesome.

Enjoy, link here:

http://thslfe.com/

*Warning - for some reason doesn't load in chrome or firefox, you'll have to use internet explorer

Scott's myspace is here:

http://www.myspace.com/scottmove

And his blogspot page here:

http://isawnothing.blogspot.com/

Here's a sample pic!

Comanechi Album release Party!

2009-11-20T10:47:00.000-08:00

Comanechi are a fuzzy, heavy sexy band from London. Keex from the Big Pink and Pre plays drums for them and sings. Their guitarist is some dude named Simon. They rule, album release party is soon...

Triple Thrash Treat Vol 3.

2009-11-16T09:21:00.000-08:00

Keex's band Comanechi are releasing their debut album in early December. She has a blog post (on http:\\exceedinglygoodkeex.blogspot.com) linking to an interview, where she gives a track by track rundown. Now, the significance here is that she mentions bands like Celtic Frost(!) and even Bolt Thrower(!!!) and its stoked me enough to do a triple thrash treat post as I haven't heard either of those bands in ages.

Celtic Frost - "Circle of Tyrants" - Fantastic, grimy metal. Tom G Warrior!!!! Celtic Frost did a couple of dogy prog-esque albums after the first ones. If you like Celtic Frost check out HellHammer too.

Bolt Thrower - "Cenotaph" - Catchiest main riff ever. Bolt Thrower used to have some pretty cool album covers.

Grave - "Soulless" - Keeping in theme with Celtic Frost this is grrirriiiiiiimmmmyyyy, check the guitar sound! I managed to see Grave play a few years ago with Cryptopsy, they killed it.

Triple Thrash Treat vol 2

2009-10-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

I'm a day late with the triple thrash treat. Sorry dudes. This week we have Dark Angel live in London, Sepultura's video for 'Arise' and a bit of Annihilator with 'Alison Hell' which has the best chorus vocals ever from guitarist Jeff Waters, surely. Thats even without the part at 3:11 with the funkiest vox in this universe.

Peace.

Dark Angel - "WE have Arrived" Dark Angel are a good solid LA thrash band, if you like Slayer you should investigate more of their stuff. I'm pretty sure their back catalogue was re-issued by Century Media so it shouldn't be too hard for you guys.

Sepultura - "Arise" - The Seps with their last truly thrashy anthem Arise from the album of the same name. Although I do like Chaos AD as equally unlike some thrash purists.

Annihilator - "Alsion hell" - This was a fun video! I'll let it speak for itself.

THE TRIPLE THRASH TREAT vol1.

2009-09-26T02:01:00.001-07:00

Back in the early 90s when MTV Europe was half decent, there was a metal show called Headbanger's Ball presented by some woman called Vanessa Warwick. They used to have some sick bands and was how I found out about metal back in the days before the internet and when Death Metal was still new and exciting.

Every week there was a slot called the 'Triple Thrash Treat' where viewers would send in a request for 3 death metal or thrash videos. It was the hi light of the week for me, I'd tape it on the Sunday night and watch it in the morning before shitty school, I'd normally fast forward through all the other stuff and watch it first as that's what I was into more than anything at the time - Death Metal. Anyway I decided to bring back the triple thrash treat every week to my blog. Here are my first three vids:

At the Gates - Terminal Spirit Disease

ATG are so passe now (Everyone claims to be influenced by them) but when this vid came out their sound was so fresh and awesome.

Death - Lack of Comprehension

This song is soooo good from the guitar intro to the fast bit in the middle to the breakdowny guitar part during the chorus. The singer Chuck Schuldiner died some years ago from a brain tumor. R I P x

Dismember - Dreaming in Red

First death metal song I ever heard. Heaviest thing I had heard before this was Metallica. This blew me away.

I'm free

2009-09-25T13:23:00.001-07:00

I've had my last day of work today. I'm going to miss all my work friends a lot, but it's time to move on. Time to skate tomorrow, and then my parents are leaving me at home for 2 weeks to look after the house and fend for myself. I will be lonely, but hopefully some people should come visit me.

I think Karin, Banni and Lianna are going to come round next Sunday for a Roast Dinner. It should be fun, I've never made one before!

The Biggest of all Pinks

2009-09-19T03:57:00.000-07:00

So, the Big Pink Launch party was Thursday night. The whole experience was awesome from getting into the queue. As soon as me and Lianna were in the queue we got into conversation with a group of people smoking a joint, and they gave us some. What a bonus. As soon as we got to the gate they didn't ask for names or invites or anything, they just stamped your hand and directed you inside.

Inside was a beautiful sight: Free Beer on the bar. The DJ was playing some bollock-shaking dubstep and me and Lianna had an explore.

There some rad paintings on the second floor

The crowd was pretty big

Lianna was loving the venue - we're definitely going to go another night!

I finally got to meet Keex as well, although I didn't get a photo. She was soooo nice! Even though hundreds of people were there anyway she said 'Thanks for coming' and thanked me for all the comments on her blog. Such a sweet girl.

We had to leave early, to catch the last tube train to shitty Ruislip. :(

The Big Pink

2009-09-02T12:58:00.000-07:00

Why do I identify with the man in this vid so much? I don't see myself as THAT big a loser but still, he seems a little lost and angsty. I guess that goes for me too.

The Big Pink finally release their album on September 14th with a really slick version of the above song. It can't come soon enough. I'm going to wear the grooves on the vinyl to nothing I will be playing it so much. I was really happy when I heard some DJ on XFM this morning go apeshit over how good he thought their song 'Dominoes'is.

THIS SATURDAY 12BAR GOODNESS

2009-09-02T12:51:00.000-07:00

It's that time of the month again, Mattybar has been hard at work as usual to get a decent line up ready for Rucktion's monthly night at the 12bar:

CHIC-A-GO-GO

2009-09-02T12:29:00.000-07:00

My mind has been blown. Imagine one of those notorious old school programs like Soul Train from the 70s, where you have someone like Al Green play live in a studio and the audience are all dancing, having a good time. Now fast forward to present day and replace Al Green with Lightening Bolt, the Misfits or Los Crudos, and instead of some hip cat presenting the show imagine a hip rat(literally!). I fell in love with this show instantly. Thanks to John Webb for featuring the Smith Westerns' appearance on his blog and opening my eyes to this insanity! Check a few vids below, and go to this link to see their youtube channel:

http://www.youtube.com/user/chicagogo

Memories

2009-08-23T13:03:00.000-07:00

Today I've been rocking to sounds of my past:

WAR HUNGRYYYYY!

2009-08-23T03:15:00.001-07:00

War hungry are playing at the beginning of September. With Dirty Money AND Jailbait (whom I havn't seen play in ages, this will be sooooo good). Stoked? I think so!

A Link to My Past

2009-08-17T22:38:00.000-07:00

I grew up playing video games in my room because I couldn't relate to most kids, I thought a lot of them were fucking stupid, senseless, selfish dumb cunts and I lived by a main road so I really couldn't play in the street. I have fond memories of playing Zelda and Mario after saving pocket money for weeks and weeks and helping in the house for a couple of extra pounds. The website 'Design Inspiration' (http://thedesigninspiration.com) has put up a series of Mario Bros. and Legend of Zelda artworks by various people. Some are incredible. My favourites below and the links are here:

http://thedesigninspiration.com/articles/30-various-styles-of-the-legend-of-zelda-artworks/

http://thedesigninspiration.com/articles/top-45-unusual-stylish-super-mario-brothers-artworks/

Broken Hearted

2009-08-17T10:11:00.000-07:00

Being broken hearted is my destiny. Not necessarily in terms of romance, but just general disappointment. But I won't ever back down or give up. It'll be fixed someday.

We're the kids of America

2009-08-09T04:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I went skating at Mile End skatepark, it's friggin sweet.

My mate Erika came out to skate too, it was a lot of fun she's always a positive and fun person to be around. Takes her slams well when she falls off her board.

I was going to go to a party afterwards and see Male Bonding play, but no -one wanted to come so I gave my buds Lianna and Karin a ring. They were in Camden, I ended up buying some cheap food from a market stall. It wasn't very tasty it was like plastic.

We then got in Karin's car to go to Harrow, we had the most fun ever. It was the 80s party in a car, and watching London go by on a hot summer's evening and people everywhere was so cool.

We stopped at some traffic lights and there was a girl with a cool looking dog in the next car to our right. She smiled at me and I took a photo, she posed and it was definitely nice to see strangers be so friendly for a change, made me feel happy.

If that wasn't enough, we saw a promo vehicle for Monster energy drink, it was huge! Lianna called out to the guy driving at the traffic lights to say his truck was awesome, then him and his girlfriend gave us free cans of Monster through the window. How friggin' sweet! He took a photo of Lianna's tattoos, and I took a picture of him taking a pic.

Here's the girls posing with the bounty of the evening. If you look closely you can see the truck in front of us after the had to overtake. I had never tried Monster before, but a friend had a good description: "Fizzy Sherbert".

So we got to Harrow, and it was £5 to get into Trinity's. Funk dat! So we just hung out with Steak and Adski for a bit drinking our cans of Monster. Ad and Steak went inside I had a huge heart to heart with the girls, it was cooolio.

After that we went round Dan's house as he's briefly back in the area from Brighton and chilled.

His kitchen was super modern.

There was a pretty sweet elephant sculpture in one of the kitchen cabinets, I thought it was so cool I had to take a pic.

Nudity

2009-08-08T04:04:00.000-07:00

Matty C had a pretty fun but small par-day last night.

Matt's house is cool, there are all kinds of crazy clown memorabilia, some of it is creepy but cool none the less.

I found a framed pic of a kid, I thought it was of Matt's brother Gary but turns out its of a family friend's kid. Still striking resemblance though, don't you think?

Callum made an appearance with a young lady, turns out she's the sis of one of my mates Robin. She's pretty sound too!

During the evening nudity was indulged in. I remember doing a striptease to Micheal Jackson down to my underwear. Matty C took it one further and did the whole mangina ting. No photos exist of that little treat but we do have an action shot here of some random semi -nudeness and Emma getting a face full of crotch

Earl's Court Sci Fi Geekery

2009-08-03T10:55:00.000-07:00

Short post! A couple of weeks ago I went to a Film and Scifi convention at Earl's Court with my friends Sarah, Emma and their mum. It's the second time we went together so it's becoming a tradition.

Me getting ghetto with Daleks

Emma, not Megan Fox btw

There were some stars doing the whole autograph thing, the only person I managed to get a pic of was Danny Trejo from Desperado, Heat, From Dusk Til Dawn and the Machete trailer

Inspiration

2009-08-03T10:22:00.000-07:00

In my room I have a pin-up board where I put pics of things and people to inspire me

If we take a closer look....

This is my invite to the crew showing of the first Star Wars prequel from 1999. I remember being so excited to see it, and then having my heart broken. I have it on my wall to remind me that no matter whatever I do, if it sucks, it won't suck as bad as 'The Phantom Menace'.

I have some pictures of this girl, Keex. Keex plays in a few bands I love, is drop dead gorgeous and is a very interesting girl judging by her blog http://exceedinglygoodkeex.blogspot.com/ . Keex was on a bit of a downer recently so I told her she was my rock idol and I had pics of her on my wall. So here's proof!

To the left of those pics I have my Misfits postcards, given to me by a close friend Mullet many years ago. I love the old school Misfits, I wish I could pretend they never reformed to ruin their reputation.

Finally I have some favourite pics of friends and family over the years, we have ups and downs and arguments and tears but its all worth it.

In the centre of the whole board I have a picture of my late friend Dylan who died earlier this year. He was someone who had a lot of problems, sometimes they drove people away including me, and I regret not trying to help him more. I feel terribly guilty because I acted like a cunt and turned my back on him. He was a nice guy who would never say anything bad about people and I had lots of fun times with him listening to music, getting high and wasted and going on adventures around London. I keep thinking of him loads recently, I miss him too much.

RIP x

Another post shock, re: Rucktion gig on Saturday

2009-07-26T22:55:00.001-07:00

Prince has always been crazier than Jacko

2009-07-04T03:46:00.001-07:00

The best thing I've seen in ages. Prince acts damn weird in this video.

Tunes to melt to....

2009-07-02T11:16:00.000-07:00

It's too hot. Get me a breadfan.

I am tired, I am weary.

If we were lucky we would all die young

Partying like it's 1999...errmmm 2009!

2009-06-28T06:45:00.000-07:00

Well the House of Ives had a party to celebrate Emma's 21st last night. It was bangtastic. The Tuts and some band called 'Colour Me Wednesday' played, I got too wasted and then smoked a spliff and span out, and had to be driven home by the mighty Barlow and chunder in the middle of my road. Good times.

I bought some pink kid's sunglasses from poundland yesterday, they were a hit with many people!

Scott was wearing the most legendary trousers:

Best instrument of the evening:

The tuts tore it up:

Nadia pulling some shapes:

Bev looking to get hooked up for some product endorsement:

The birthday girl acting shocked:

These cats were cool, but I forget their names:

Sam decided to get her helmet out:

My cousin Sam decided to adopt an intense face:

All in all it was pure jokes. I just feel sad there is no party next weekend....but I do get to go and see Male Bonding and Finally Punk play at the Old Blue. So I think terrorising Natalie will be in order afterwards! See ya later chuckles, hope you enjoyed the post. PEACE

Bye Michael

2009-06-25T22:34:00.000-07:00

It's funny how someone's death makes you look back at their best points as opposed to their worst ones. Even though Michael has been a casualty of the media and generally weird throughout the 90s and this decade, the news has made me look back and think about the heyday of the mid-late 80s when MJ was THE shit. You couldn't go anywhere without seeing his face or hearing his tunes, and I loved his music even though I hated most pop as a 6 year old.

I think the first time I ever felt embarrassed was when I was practicing dancemoves watching the smooth criminal video and turned around to see my parents laughing at me. This sucks. RIP Michael.

The beginning of the end

2009-06-24T13:54:00.000-07:00

I'm having a blog simply 'cos even though I find my life boring and regular someone somewhere and people I don't see all the time might be interested, so why not?

The last week has been a flurry of 21st birthday celebrations. First of all my friend, ex-housemate and "lovepuff" obsessive Natalie had hers last Tuesday. It involved going to the worst town in the world, Uxbridge, drinking at Wetherspoons and having stupid photos afterwards, like these:

Abbey Road eat your heart out

Middle finger creates my favourite salute

There was my friend Rachel's birthday on Friday, her party was off the hook and had the best buffet ever, but there's no photos capturing the chicken and tarts for dessert, unfortunately. You're going to have to forgive me for that one.

Then my friend, bassist and Hollywood obsessive Lianna had a sweet party involving lots of booze, prank doorbell ringing, the Baseball Furies and Cupcakes. Harrow skate ledge Nick thought it'd be a grand idea to write BMX on my forehead. I spent the evening looking a fool, but it was worth it to see so many people laugh and enjoy themselves.

Nick, and the start of madness

Party in full 'swing' ;)

Like my new hairdo?

Lianna's ready to shred

Me and my friend Ban have been holding it down for years, check pictures of us during the evening and the morning after:

Morning after, looking like junk yard dogs

Night before, being hoolies

Emma's 21st is this Saturday, I'd should be a laugh. Hold tight till then. Peace